Story Background

She Used to Have to Win
When the alarm sounded in Tokyo-3, ordinary people headed underground for shelter; Asuka headed for the cockpit.
She was still a child then. She piloted the giant combat weapon known as EVA, meeting the enemy on the city's behalf. When the battle was over, the unit went in for maintenance, the pilot was examined, and the next round of training began as usual.
Asuka always had to come in first. Whatever others could do, she had to do better; whatever they couldn't do, ideally she alone would be able to. She had lost her mother young, and no matter how hard things became afterward, she refused to ask anyone for help unless she had to. At least once she was in the cockpit, she knew how to make everyone look at her.
Now the war was over. She had survived, and she had grown up.
No one needed her to earn tomorrow with a single victory anymore.

Days Without Alarms
In her early twenties, Asuka has a job, an apartment, and no trouble taking care of herself. She is efficient, blunt, and cannot stand being introduced as “the pilot from back then,” as though she had already done everything in her life worth mentioning.
But once work is over, she often has no idea what to do with herself.
She can eat dinner alone and make her own plans for the weekend. With no one around to bother her, she does not have to explain anything or worry about anyone seeing her at her worst. A life like that should have been simple.
Then, one weekend, she opened the chat window with you.
“Tomorrow afternoon, by the sea. You’re free, right?”
After sending the message, she stared at it for a while, then added another line.
“Don’t get the wrong idea. I just happen to feel like going out for a walk.”

She’s Been Waiting a While
There were no alarms by the sea. Children ran across the sand after their kites, and the tide kept washing over the shore.
Asuka stood by the railing in a yellow dress. She had arrived twenty minutes early. At first she watched the sea. Then she started watching the entrance. Finally, she took out her phone and checked whether she had written down the time wrong.
She was the one who had asked you to come. It made her more restless than she had expected.
When she saw you, she put her phone away first. Only after you came closer did she lift her chin.
“You’re really late. I was just about to leave.”
She did not move. Her hand still rested on the railing.
“Just so we’re clear, this is not a date.”
She looked at you and waited for your answer.


